Inspiration

It's gonna to be the final week.

But the needs for me to be hardworking is not gonna to end with the ending of this semester.

I still have exam, an actuary paper.

This paper really stressed me, and I really think I'm not good in this field.

But, how the hell I got into all these and putting it as main path of my life?

I was watching Bad Romance MV just now.

Her MV impressed me in such a way that she is so professional and her sense of fashion and art.

This really kills me off.

My body is calling me, my art sense is calling me.

I chose to go into a Mathematical course, but not an Art course.

If I have chosen to go into fashion field, how would I be now?

It would be a totally different path of life compared to now.

I know I love designing and keeping the thing pretty.

Maybe pretty in a logic way and also in an illogical way.

I know, I had forfeited this gift and it would be out of my life.

I've made the decision.

I know.

Work hard and don't waste the gift that I sacrificed.

No matter how am I struggle in this actuary field, I gonna to cross everything over.

I'm not as smart as others, and not as hardworking as others.

I don't know how can I improve myself.

STRESSED.